This Is Why You Feel Lost

12.12.25

When I was younger, all I ever wanted was a peaceful existence.

In fact, if someone offered me to live in the woods and check out of society, I probably would’ve done it.

I didn’t want to get involved with anything serious, and as soon as something required a bit of effort, I’d give up and move on to the next thing.

On the surface, it seemed I had it all figured out. After all, I didn’t want any trouble and was a mere seeker of inner peace.

But underneath, I experienced this excruciating lack of meaning and constant restlessness.

I lived in a perpetual dream-like mode (maladaptive daydreaming).

Time was passing, and I wasn’t doing anything worthy. I didn’t have any valuable skills, and I had no idea why everything felt so dull and pointless.

I know, classic Puer Aeternus.

It turns out that I was avoiding the responsibility of creating a life for myself and taking on real commitments.

A massive problem is that I interpreted any kind of effort as a testament that it was the wrong path and that “it simply wasn’t for me”.

I lost great opportunities and relationships because I never took anything seriously enough.

Fast-forward to 2025, this was the toughest year of my entire life, and paradoxically, the most meaningful in every way.

Unfortunately, I dealt with serious health conditions, trouble with housing, family problems, and a lot of people trying to destroy and even plagiarize my work.

At the same time, it was THE most creative period of my life.

I launched my physical book, PISTIS – Demystifying Jungian Psychology (over 300 people already have a copy!), several courses, and had amazing success with my clients.

I’m genuinely grateful for the people who value my work.

Also, I experienced deeper and meaningful connections with my loved ones.

God gave me the strength to persevere, and it became absolutely clear that experiencing meaning is in direct correlation with the amount of responsibility you’re willing to accept.

I’m not talking about becoming everybody’s savior, but accepting your sense of duty by having a true commitment to your craft, your family and loved ones, and being in the service of something greater than yourself.

When I was younger, I didn’t realize I was living in a narcissistic headspace. But everything was about me, and I was constantly looking for comfort and immediate rewards.

When you’re coming from this place, the only way out is learning how to enjoy pushing yourself and developing your talents to their fullest extent.

Experiencing a lack of meaning is deeply painful, but your suffering becomes meaningful when you’re striving to be your best, sacrifice selfish needs to build a marriage, and you’re devoted to a worthy cause.

Meaning is concealed in the challenges and suffering you’re avoiding.

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