Why Healing Neurosis Feels Like Dying

08.12.25

The biggest lesson I’ve learned this year is that doing what’s right for the development of our souls and healing often feels like we’re dying.

Everything inside of us rebels against growth.

We usually take the first signs of struggle as an indication we’re on the wrong path, but fighting against this resistance is exactly what can liberate us.

This might sound counterintuitive, but when you understand the mechanisms of neurosis, it makes perfect sense.

Neurosis Explained

Being neurotic means that there’s a shadow complex ruling the conscious mind.

These complexes trap the subject in a repeating storyline and drive their behaviors and decisions, seeking to constantly self-perpetuate.

It’s just like the movie Groundhog Day.

These complexes color our perceptions, and because they tend to follow a tight script, whenever we strive to break free from it, it feels wrong, and there’s massive resistance.

It’s crazy, but human beings have a great tendency to always choose staying in familiar situations, even when they’re a living hell, simply because it’s predictable, instead of daring to go into the unknown and create better conditions.

This week, a client of mine confessed something that pierced me. He said, “I realize how often I take refuge in feeling bad about myself”.

He knew he was capable of more, but whenever there was an opportunity for growth, being seen, and a new challenge, he chose to put himself down and found excuses to not persevere.

That was the repeating storyline.

Of course, there’s a multitude of reasons as to why these narratives are constructed, but focusing exclusively on the past often blinds us to understanding why they’re still at play.

When someone sees themself as inherently incapable, there’s a lot of responsibility that can be avoided.

They can pretend that they don’t have any talents and don’t put any effort into developing them.

If you’re constantly hiding and downplaying your abilities, people stop expecting things from you, and you also don’t have to be in service of anything.

Moreover, you can create relationship dynamics in which everyone is constantly taking responsibility in your place.

But these comfortable lies are poison for the soul, and healing requires letting go of them and accepting the responsibility of creating a new identity.

But this doesn’t happen in a flash, as healing is a construction.

Follow Resistance

That said, carving a new path occurs through small, daily choices.

Start by fixing your habits and choosing to follow resistance whenever it appears.

Instead of interpreting struggle as a bad sign, take it as a reassurance you’re breaking the pattern.

Follow resistance even if it feels weird or counterintuitive, as growth requires effort and letting go of the old identity.

Healing requires movement, sometimes it’s internal, like choosing to be with an uncomfortable emotion instead of indulging in addictions.

At other times, it’s about making a tough decision, setting a boundary, or making time to work on your craft and be creative.

In the beginning, it seems like nothing is happening.

But the truth is that true healing is subtle, and huge cathartic moments are rare.

Jung says that we must use the conscious mind to its limits until the unconscious finally corroborates.

The more we choose to follow resistance, the more we solidify a new sense of identity and start unlocking new possibilities.

When you least expect it, things start flowing, and all your hard work pays off.

Healing neurosis comes as a new synthesis, and it’s important to realize all the small steps that led up to it.

That’s what brings confidence and drive you to keep following resistance.

Just don’t stop.

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